progress, ride of hope and ladies tour of norway!

The past month has been a great time for my body, for four weeks I've seen progress in pretty much every training. Everything from the feeling in my lung, in my body and in the pulse is changing for the better quite fast. What Im doing at the moment is slow and steady, longer trainings to start to build up my body again without getting my pulse up to high (tho I don't have to look at my pulse every second of every ride anymore). I take restdays completly of the bike to make sure my body recovers well (which it does) and make sure I step up the training slowly, there's no stress. I have a bike ECG test booked the 24 of august to make sure nothing has gotten to my heart, which we believe it hasn't. After that Im hoping to be allowed to start doing a bit of intervals and maybe do a few races in Sweden before the season ends, only to get in the athmosphere and to make the winter feel not as long. If the doctors allow ofcourse.
I've put up a plan over the fall and winter to come back stronger than ever in 2016 and Im super excited to get a great winter in! There's always a silver lining and my motivation is very high for the olympic year to come.
The past week i've been a part of the leaders crew of Ride of Hope, an event where people ride from Lund in south of Sweden all the way to Stockholm. The rides has been between 100-180km every day and today is the 9th and final day for the ride. The event is all about gathering money for the childhood cancer foundation and my friend Gary Fleming is the one who started it all, a guy with a big heart of gold. 
It's been a great week and I've met so many wounderful people and everyone is there for the same reason; for the kids and to fight cancer. I loved every second of it! If you wanna help with the gathering, here's where you can donate:
The coming week it's time for the scandinavian UCI/WC races to kick of and at Ladies tour of Norway I am gonna be working for the norwegian TV2 channel as an expert commentator. So from today til than I'll study the results of 2015! ;) Im super excited to see all my friends again and to watch some world class racing live! Offcourse I wouldn't have wanted anything else than to be on the startline myself and I get alot of questions about if I don't feel bad to watch the races when I can't race'em myself. Yes, my legs iche and I WANT to ride, but I have accepted the situation and Im happy to be a part of it in some way to be honest. I see it as a reminder of where I want to be and a motivation to get there.
So things are coming together for me again and it's exciting times ahead! All smiles! :)

frustrating times

Hello there, long time no see! I get alot of questions both about my illness, my current state and why i havn't been bloging.. ;) So i figured it's time to update a bit. 
So, to answer the biggest questions I get; Im not well yet and I have no idea right now when Im gonna be good to go again. If you read about pleurisy on the internet and talk to normal doctors it says 2 weeks of total rest and you'll be good to live normal again pretty much. Though, living normaly for a pro cyclist or any athlete for that matter is not really living normal in that sense. I have tried so hard to get tests done and find out if there is anything else wrong with me, even been tested for twar for example since it's been over two months now. It has all been negative (luckily) and it looks like I "only" have pleurisy.
A friend of mine in my local club is an abulance driver and than knows alot of doctors. He got me in contact with a lung specialist. He told me you can have sympthoms for six months from this illness and it's the exact symthomps I have. Heavy cheast or pain in the pleura when my pulse goes to high. He also got me another lung scan to see what it looks like, that was last week and Im waiting for the answers on that now, which I probably get in a couple of days. 
As some might have seen on instagram and twitter, I do exercise a little bit. As much as I feel my body can really. My problem, as I said, is my pulse can't go over 140 if I don't want pain for a while around the lung. So Im trying to take long walks and short bike rides. Can also do pretty good gym sessions which is importent so that my legs can get some work done for real. All is pulse controlled and that makes it easier to get the most out of the training. 
It is a very frustrating situation, to come from a winter where I have never felt stronger at that time of year and when finally get to race, something is wrong. When I finally know what it was, thinking it'll only take a few weeks until I can race again (which in itself was hard). Than having to chance my focus and goals pretty much every week. Now I know, it will take time and I have to really listen to my body, carefully, and I have accepted that this season is not gonna happen for me. I still hope I can race something before the season is over though, but my first focus is to get well. It is a part of the sport and it is these kind of things that builds mental strenght. It makes it even more clear what I want. I am motivated as h*** to get back better than before to next year. It will be hard work, but with focus and motivation it will happen.
Im trying to help my body to get healthy in all ways I can, I have changed a few things and hoping it will atleast help a bit. One thing I've done is, I've stopped eating wheat, which I've done once before and it does make a differens to how my body works. It's not totaly easy to just stop since they have it in almost everything! When traveling it's very inconvenient but now that I am home it's an easy thing to do to help my body a bit on the way. That together with sleep is two very importent things right now. 
Im keeping positive (most of the time) and have alot of great support from friends, team and ofcourse the biggest support, my family. It has been importent and will always be, Im greatful for all the pep and help!♥ I'll be back stronger, much becouse of you!
Can get this happy from riding in shorts in Sweden for the first time in months!

so, what happend really? -pleurisy

It's been 12 days since I went to the hospital in Oudenaarde, Belgium, becouse of cheast pain. I had been feeling more tired than normal since my 3days fever in the beginning of marsh and it felt worse and worse with my legs being filled of lactic acid way to early, every training and race. I knew I was better than that but I started to even doubt myself after a while when all I did was just shit. It was an awful feeling I had while raceing in Cholet, droped in the last hill when the lactic acid hit my whole body and I could barly move forward. Stupid as I was I continued like normal, an easy day on monday and than straight to a Max VO2 test at Bakala testing center with the national team the day after. I felt shit. And my test results was not top, even tho they where okay. After this test I was laying in my bed all day, sleeping, with a headache from hell, just TOO tired. The day after I was still very tired but determined to start at Waregem kermesse (Dwars door Vlaanderen). It was the so far coldest race of the year and also wet roads. I tried to stay up in the front like normal in the beginning, I just had to fight so hard and had no power what so ever. Tried for 3 laps and on the 4th lap I decided to step off, something wasn't right and I had hit the bottom. Coulden't even finish a 77km kermesse.
I was broken down mentaly and again, stuck in bed from tiredness. After team meeting and dinner I started to feel the presure over my cheast, I feel a sleep and slept for 4 hours before I woke up and couldn't sleep again from the pain. At around 5 o'clock I texted my mum who for some reason saw it straight away, got scared and called the health care info. They told me to call them and so I did, at 5 in the morning. I got told to go to the hospital when I could. 
I was scared, in pain and stuck in Belgium, luckily my scandinavian partner in crime was there to keep me calm and i owe her for that! I could barly walk, atleast not faster than 2km/h.. But when I finally got to the hospital the doctors took me straight in to a room to see what was wrong, after that it all went really fast. I didn't have to wait for a long time in between the different tests until I had to go to a new one. Or acctually, be driven in a wheelchair. Had my own chauffeur, a guy who (as most people at the hospital) was very interested in cycling. 
They did 2 ECGs, looked for blood clots, ultrasound on my heart, stomack and legs, loung x-ray and a bounch of other tests. They wouldn't let me go from the hospital until they knew exactly what was wrong and Im telling you, Ive never had a check up like this. It feels good, tho, to know that my body in gereral is in great condition! What they found was pleurisy (lungsäcksinflammation), an inflammation in the layer between the loung and the ribs. They let me stay the night for observation and to do some extra tests in the morning to exclude some stuff and confirm what they'd found and I got to spend a night next to an old lady who didn't know a word of english. The nurses told me she had been a cyclist in her younger days as well and that she already was a big fan of me, haha! In the morning in between the last tests I once again saw how big cycling is in Belgium, and what big respect cyclists get there. A nurse asked me for my autograph for her husband, I tell you that wouldn't happen in any other place than Belgium, haha!
When they finally let me go I made it back to the house and packed my bags, really slowly. They had told me I was not allowed to do any heavy work/lifting/training in 2 weeks and I booked a flight home straight away for the day after in the morning. Got medicine and I was ready to leave and rest in my own bed. Stef and Christina helped me with all I needed and I made it safe home and had some days just laying in bed watching series and tv, just being really tired and with pain.
Today, as I said it's 12 days since I went to the hospital and I've just been to the local doctor to see where I am at. What he told me was, it looks good from what he could see and Im good to start traning easily whenever I feel okay and the only thing I can do is to just see if it feels good or not and than gradually go harder and harder til Im at my normal training program again. So what I'll do is to wait til friday when it's been about 2 weeks and hopefully I'm back traninig in a normal level quite soon after that. Cross your fingers!
Ugh, this day whas just painful! Cholet. Photo: Velofocus